I hate crying. I miss everyone. I miss my grandpa. Everything that's happening now, and losing my grandpa and missing all y cousins is causing me so much more pain than it should. Why can't someone jut give me a hug. Why can't anyone just tell me it's okai to cry, you can lean on me. I'm here. Why can't anyone give me a hug. And comfort me till I've fallen asleep? Am I really THAT complicated to be with?
